Sunday, December 18, 2005
This week I am saying good bye to a pair of jeans that I have loved to death ~I don’t think I can honestly convey to you how much I will miss these jeans, they have been very important to me and I know I will never have another pair just like them, it doesn’t happen, clothing has a life of its own, the experiences you have in it the places it goes with you, these are all things that put a huge imprint on clothing that can’t duplicated. I purchased these jeans at a point in my life when things were going very badly. I had decided that New York was not going to work out for me and that I was going to have to return back to Utah, I felt like a complete failure. So before I left the east coast I decided to make one last trip down to D.C. to hang out with my friends down there.
I was visiting with Karen and we decided to go to the Leesburg outlets because we loved to outlet shop and we could use my Pottery Barn discount up there at the Williams Sonoma outlet as well as the Pottery Barn outlet. Let me tell you we put that discount to good use that weekend and I don’t regret a single purchase not even one. Anyways while we were up there we visited the Gap outlet I never miss an opportunity to try on jeans at the Gap. I have worn gap jeans exclusively since I was 13 until last month ~but that’s a different story. So Karen and I went into the Gap to try on jeans. I don’t think I can even begin to tell you in words how much it meant to me to find a pair of jeans that worked so well for me as that pair of medium wash lowrise bootcut jeans meant to me that day, they were exactly what I needed at that time in my life. They have been my favorite jeans ever since, and I have faithful worn them since then too. Originally they were long enough that I could wear them with heals and that was a favorite look of mine with them. I love the look of a good clean white tee with long lean jeans and a pair of heals where it seams like white tennies would be more appropriate. With Gap jeans though they tend to shrink in length quite a bit as they get washed, that is why I like to buy them in the fall and then by the summer they are the prefect length to wear with my flip flops.
The only time that I was really sad with these jeans was last December, I had gained too much weight when I moved to Las Vegas and they were no longer quite the look and feel I was going for, but it was short lived. I started to walk that winter and well by March I couldn’t have asked for a better fit. I wore them almost every day in the early spring until I found another pair of Gap jeans in late April. All through the summer those jeans were properly rotated in my wardrobe and well they got a lot of use this fall as the weather turned a little cool and I was working at the Corn Wagon with its casual dress code. This fall the jeans also started to give out on me ~it happens I have huge thighs, I always have, all of my jeans get worn out in the thighs first. I didn’t mind so much at the beginning, sooner than later I had to do some reinforcement stitching but who notices on the thighs, then a couple of weeks later a little more and well most of the time when I pull them out the wash I would just give them a little more stitching love. Last week they gave up on me ~or I gave up on them. I was wearing them and it had been a little longer between washing than it should have been and well when I jumped into my car that evening they tore apart. They were no longer worn they were torn. I have spent the last week thinking about what to do with those jeans, should I just sew up the ever larger wear spots, or should I just admit that they have had there time in my life and they really need to be let go.
I know this will sound crazy to some of you but letting go of something that at one time was so right and so important to you feels wrong like a huge betrayal but at the same time, it could never be what it should be ~what it could be ~what it once ones. Somehow trying to repair those jeans and make them work one more time seams more like betrayal of what they once were to me than just letting them go. I am not going to pretend that I think I am going to be better off without them or that I can buy a new pair that will work just as well or at this point better (they will have an inseam.) I plan on being very sad about this for the next little while, loosing these jeans will be very much like the loss of a friend for me, a friend that always tried to be there for me, a friend that was willing to go through the humiliation of repair work with me ~I know those jeans would have stood by be for the rest of my life if I would just stick with them. That’s why I have let them go, I have to be the one that sees it is time to have closure and move on.
Those jeans are now going to go into my old jeans collection and one day hope for a life where they will be recycled into a fun ground cover blanket where they can be loved again in a new way, maybe by someone who was lucky enough to get such a gift and maybe I will be the lucky one that finds a new way to love an old friend, a love that isn’t as hard as it is right now.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
French Silk Pie
½ cup Butter
¾ cup Sugar
1 pkg Chocobake
1 tsp Vanilla
Cream butter and sugar until fluffy; add chocobake, and vanilla mix until incorporated. Add one egg and beat for five minutes, add second egg and beat for five more minutes. Pour into Oreo crumb crust and top with fresh whipped cream, freeze overnight and serve huge slices that Mom always complains are far to large for such a rich pie ~you should watch me put it down.
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Main Entry: adore Pronunciation: &-'dOr, -'dor
Function: transitive verb
Inflected Form(s): adored; ador·ing
Etymology: Middle English adouren, from Middle French adorer, from Latin adorare, from ad- + orare to speak, pray
1 : to worship or honor as a deity or as divine
2 : to regard with loving admiration and devotion (adored his daughter)
3 : to be extremely fond of (adores pecan pie)
The second definition of it is my favorite ~oh how I long to be adored.
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
2. Diet Coke
3. Hot Showers
5. Howler Babies
When I was in college Tate saw an episode of Oprah where she talked about gratitude journals and so the two of us started to keep them. I still have that original journal it is in my college correspondence box. Everyday I would write five things I was grateful for, Diet Coke often toped the list, as did the color red. So the other night while I was saying my evening prayers I thought back on that journal ~I was trying in my prayer to come up with what exactly I was thankful for when so many things in my life are not exactly what I would have them be. I didn’t pray for Diet Coke or the color red. So it made me question why the things I so often include in my prayers that I am thankful for never made my gratitude list and why I never prayed for the things on my gratitude list. What is the difference between gratitude and thankfulness, is there a difference should I include Diet Coke in my prayers should my talents be put on my gratitude list because they always make my prayers. I know I am blessed, I just wish I could have everything I wanted.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
So the other night while I watched that movie all I could do was cry because I had no 10' tree to deal with and I wasn't in Virginia running around a tree farm and it made me horribly sad.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
I have a crush on Rick Springfield; I have since I was about ten and found the song Jessie’s Girl. I have actually wanted to be Jessie’s Girl ~I want to be so amazing that not only am I dating a hot boy (Jessie) but another hot boy (Rick Springfield) wants me. Anyways I am going to get my Rick Springfield fix this week he is reprising his role as Dr. Noah Drake on
Monday, November 28, 2005
I don’t want to hear anything about my list being too long or too crazy ~it is a “wish list” not a “if I don’t get everything on this list I will not show up for the holiday” list ~it is suppose to be a little silly. Also mine isn’t as silly as my friend Marcilyn’s that includes a Mercedes-Benz 2006 SLR McLaren.
Remember these items are in no particular order of importance or cost.
1. Marta Barware ~ I want 10 glasses but will take what I can get.
2. The Muppets Christmas Carol ~best version ever of this fabulous holiday tale.
3. Cookbooks ~ I don’t have any by Jamie Oliver or the Barefoot Contessa and they make lovely books.
4. Red Fishnet stockings ~Target has them.
5. Large Snowflake ornament
6. Black tote bag.
7. Cake plate any pretty one will do.
9. Grass & Branch t-shirt eggplant xl.
And just because it is fun to ask for a big ticket item…
10. Allison Necklace
Sunday, November 27, 2005
I had a great Thanksgiving this year ~the turkey was perfect the side dishes were plentiful and amazing, but at the holidays I always seem to think back on the holidays past and think of every way I was ever wronged on that day by anyone I have ever met and think ~someday they will pay. This year though I am turning over a new leaf and instead of thinking of how Thanksgiving pasts have wronged me (I will get my cousin Sean for cheating at Pictionary Thanksgiving ’88) I thought of the best Thanksgiving ever.
Thanksgiving ’93 will forever and always be my favorite holiday to remember. It was my freshman year of college and I was so desperate to get home that semester I would have done anything to get there ~which did include having my freshman roommate go home with my sister Whitney and her husband on Thursday as I snuck away on Wednesday with my brother Jason. That year Thanksgiving was at my parents house and just us kids as I remember which means ~there was no kiddy table in fact there were no kids unless you counted my 14 year old brother ~which I never counted. So when people visit like my freshman roommate Melissa did you realize either how embarrassing your family is or how cool your family is, my family is cool. On the way back to school Melissa actually complained how my family went to the movies four times that holiday and ended up renting videos one night, she was completely movie overloaded and well I had gotten my fill just like I do with Granny’s yummy cream pudding.
See that Thanksgiving as I said there was no kids table we didn’t have anyone to really watch or entertain except ourselves so we could do cool things like go to two evening movies and two matinees in four days. That kind of thing never happens anymore now there are too many of us ~I mean I wouldn’t get rid of anyone in my family, but man that was the best holiday ever.
~I only remember one of the movies that we went to My Life with Michael Keaton, and Nicole Kidman.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
I love the musical Wicked I listened to the soundtrack a million times and well I absolutely loved the show it was definitely in my top five
Sunday, November 06, 2005
This cake was for the Corn Wagon’s Birthday it is suppose to look like a double wedding ring quilt ~I was not happy with the way this one turned out but hey what can I say ~I am still working on it.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
In my journal I write my personal entries in the front and in the back I write down quotes that I find and I am done with my journal when my entries and my quotes meet up.
I also love jewelry~
I love little pieces that remind me of a moment or go just right with that shirt I love to wear.
So you can imagine my joy at finding an artist that combines both beautiful jewelry and sweet little quotes.
Now if I only could afford her~
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
I snapped this photo of her between trick-or-treaters ~she is one and I think she has really embraced the holiday.
Monday, October 31, 2005
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Anyways I was discussing Standard Time with my sister Whitney tonight when she asked if it is always a 12 hour day around the equator ~I said basically it must be. She then declared "If I was Queen of the Equator" I started laughing I had no idea that the equator had a queen. Anyways Whitney said she would have the sun come up at 9am and set around 9pm and it would be lovely. Unfortunately the equator is more of a 6am to 6pm kind of place ~I did a little research online. I also did a google search for “queen of the equator” and well there already is one http://www.deviantart.com/view/15661150/
Whitney will be so disappointed.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Pumpkin Cake (Bars)
1 yellow cake mix
1/4 cup butter
1 tsp cinnamon
1 15oz can pumpkin
1 15oz can evaporated milk
3/4 cup sugar
1/2 tsp salt
1 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp ginger
1/4 tsp nutmeg
Set oven at 350' and get out a 9" x 13" pan
Alright mix crust mixture, cake mix, cinnamon, butter and 1 egg. Save out 1/2 cup of the mixture and place the rest of it in the bottom of the pan, press into a crust. Now mix pumpkin, evaporated milk, sugar, salt, 2 eggs, and spices together. Pour pumpkin mixture over crust and bake for 35 minutes. Now sprinkle the cake mixture that you set aside and bake for another 15 minutes.
Let bars cool and call them cake to torture Grant.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
So any ways this week I decided to make those same bar cookies ~they were basically a Hello Dolly Bars with an Oreo cookie crumb crust so I just modified a dolly bar recipe. It turned out amazing and so I recommend anyone who loves Robert Redford and crazy musicals staring Barbra Streisand to make these and well maybe you should watch The Way We Were when you eat them in fact that is what I am naming my recipe.
The Way We Were Bars
1/2 cup butter (one stick)
1 1/4 cups Oreo crumbs
1 cup shredded coconut
1 cup chopped walnuts
1 1/2 cups chocolate chips
1/4 cup butterscotch chips
1 can sweetened condensed milk
Set oven temperature to 350'
Place 8"x 11" pan in oven with the stick of butter. Let the butter melt in the pan while you mix the other ingredients together.
In a bowl mix the coconut, walnuts, chocolate chips, butterscotch chips and sweetened condensed milk all together.
When the butter has melted in the pan sprinkle Oreo crumbs over the melted butter. Take a fork and make sure they are well mixed together and spread evenly over the bottom of the pan. Then dump the sweetened condensed milk mixture over them and return the pan to the oven to bake for 25 more minutes.
Let bars cool and cut ~or eat them warm out of the pan with a spoon as think if only Hubble could love her a little more it would be okay.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
On Tuesdays I work stitchie it is in the basement and the only people that come down there are those who love to embroider or people walking past me to get to the sales. So for three hours on Tuesdays I get to do what ever I want to and no one bothers me ~I listen to my music and work on my projects. Today my projects consisted of an advent calendar and a baby quilt ~ I didn’t finish either but I can’t work on any one thing for too long I am a little manic that way. I think I am in over my head on both projects which makes the desire to complete them less ~I will finish them though I love finishing things and starting things it is the stuff in between that is tough. I feel that way about life it is the stuff in between that is tough. Right now I am in between ~it is tough but I can still remember how much I love finishing things so I am plugging along waiting to finish this up and start something new.
Saturday, October 22, 2005
On Wednesday I blistered my hands using pliers two nasty ones on my fingers. That wasn’t enough though I also tore them up a bit while I was fixing the sink so I have blisters, and nasty little sores.
Well on Thursday I decided my hands weren’t pathetic enough so for the first time ever ~after probably 20 years of using a rotary blade I cut myself. I didn’t run myself down with the blade I was much more subtle. I left the blade open while I was cutting jean up for a quilt I turned my hand into the open blade and cut myself in two places, one of which was a bleeder ~ick.
Well that’s not enough on Saturday while cutting apples I slipped using a dull blade and I thought I had sort of just grazed my finger ~um not so lucky I cut it.
So now I have three cuts on my left hand, two blisters and two scratches on my right hand, needless to say I am avoiding sharp objects and lemons for the next little while.
Friday, October 21, 2005
It's the fall so I made pumpkin bars ~i love pumpkin bars I tweaked a couple of recipes to come up with this version ~It may need a little more tweaking ~more pumpkin ~less egg I'm not sure but I like what I did with the spices so don't mess with that.
2 cups flour
1 tsp cinnamon
1 tsp ginger
1 tsp nutmeg
1 tsp cloves
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp baking powder
½ tsp salt
2 cups sugar
1 cup vegetable oil
2 cups canned pumpkin
Preheat oven to 350’ line 15x10 baking sheet with parchment paper.
Mix everything together until it is beautifully blended together. Pour into pan. Bake for 30 min or until it is beautifully done ~
Cream Cheese Frosting
8 oz. cream cheese
6 Tbls butter
3 cups powder sugar
1 tsp vanilla
Cream butter, cream cheese, and sugar, add vanilla and frost cooled pumpkin bars.
It makes a rather large amount but on one occasion my roommate Lindy and I ate the whole pan ~
I did share the pan I made on Wednesday night.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
2 tablespoons vegetable oil
1 medium onion, chopped
2 cloves garlic, sliced
1 chipotle in adobo sauce, minced
1 tablespoon chili powder
2 teaspoons kosher salt
8 cups chicken broth, low-sodium canned
1 can corn kernels
2 ripe tomato, chopped
3 medium chicken breasts
1/2 cup cilantro leaves slightly chopped
1/4 cup freshly squeezed lime juice (about 2 limes)
About a dozen corn tortilla chips, broken a bit
Lime wedges, for garnish
Heat some oil in a medium frying over medium heat, cook chicken until juices run clear set aside so it can cool to be shredded. To shred chicken use two forks so it nice and small for the soup.
Heat 2 tablespoons oil in a medium stock pot. Add the onion, garlic, chipotle, chili powder, and salt and cook until the onion softens, about 5 minutes. Add the chicken broth, bring to a boil, reduce the heat slightly, and simmer, uncovered, for 10 minutes. Add the corn and cook for 5 minutes more.
Pull the saucepan from the heat and stir in the tomato, chicken, cilantro, and lime juice. Divide the tortilla chips among 4 warmed bowls, ladle the soup on top, and serve with lime wedges, if desired.
Know-How Get every last drop of juice from those little limes. Before halving, microwave them for a few seconds and roll them under the palm of your hand to release the juice from the pulp.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
So this is a picture of me durring my red hair phase Fall '03 I loved it and would keep doing it if I didn't think it looked so silly.So should we try another one and see if it works too?
Oh it did work I am so happy just as happy as I was when my friend Goo let me paint her bedroom and this is what I did to it ~sort of fun huh?
Monday, October 17, 2005
I will never tire of telling the story the first time I met Tatum. We met while we were students at BYU. It was my Junior year and Tate's Sophomore year. We had randomly been assigned as roommates. I had been in town for about two days I had a reason to hang round
The first words I uttered to Tate were, "I don't eat blue thing," as I handed her a bowlful of blue M&M's ~they had just introduced the new color and well it seemed to unnatural to me to eat them. Tatum stared at me blankly not quite sure if she should eat blue things like I was quizzing her or I was just plain crazy and she needed to think of the best way to keep me calm (do I eat the offensive M&M's or do I agree with the crazy and banish the blue too.) She definitely wasn't impressed unless you consider fear an impression.
It should be said I wasn't impressed with Tatum either she was wearing this shade of pink that was completely inappropriate for a girl her age ~she was days shy of being twenty and well no one over four should have been wearing that shade of pink. This is were you might think that I am judgmental but if you knew at the time I was a fashion major and it was my job to judge people by what they wore you would be much more accepting of that judgment. I continued at that moment to think about Tatum for about two more seconds and then I had to get busy back to the only thing I spent any really time think about at that point in my life ~my one true love.
I will be forever grateful that Tatum over looked my issue with blue food ~that I am now over, I eat all of the M&M's and never think of sharing them not for any reason let alone color ~I do however still take issue with some of the color things M&M's tries ~the black, white and grey ones were hard to swallow.
I also am glad that I forgave Tatum of her choice of shirts that day ~I later learned that there were much better ways to cast judgment on her wardrobe ~ pink was only the beginning.
Tatum has always been a great friend and I will always be thankful that we were lucky enough to end up in the same apartment by chance ~that was much closer to destiny.