Okay in all honesty the last couple of weeks when the radio or internet was talking about something or other of the last decade I thought they were mistaken. I can't believe it has been ten years since Y2K ~oh i loved Y2K. I rang the new year in that year down on the nations mall with some random friends I couldn't name beyond my roommate Becky if my life depended on it.
I can tell you this though~ If you had told me what the next ten years would bring I would have laid down and let the crowd trample me to death. So what have I learned in the last ten year ~you can live through things you never wanted to, you are often more prepared than you think for life's challenges and yes you are stronger and smarter in your thirties than you twenties, but with that come more cynicism and fiercer independence, life is full of opportunities and failures. Ten years ago what mattered to me most is gone and I am grateful that what matters most to me now is much more real.
I can't even let myself ponder about what the next ten years might bring for fear that I will wonder into the mountains and let myself freeze to death before I even think about facing it. I will remind myself that ~I can live through things I never wanted to, I am often more prepared than I think I am, I have so much more to learn and strength to gain, cynicism to loose and independence to shed, opportunities to embrace and failures to learn from and most of all one thing that makes it all worthwhile ~love to give.